No, I didn’t fall off the face of the earth

It’s been a few weeks, I know. But remember that whole time management thing I was talking about? Well, I decided that writing in my blog wasn’t at the top of the to do list. I have unwritten posts floating around in my head somewhere, but I don’t know if they’ll all make it on here.

So, what have I been doing these past few weeks? Nothing terribly different since I last posted, just baby steps. I’m still reading through “Lost it for Life.” I still have not had one sip of Pepsi since I posted that I gave it up. And, I have been trying to feel my emotions, instead of running to the refrigerator in hopes of making those emotions go away.  I’m certainly not 100% cured of that problem, but little successes here and there. Oh, and one more thing to report: I FINALLY pulled out my Wii Fit again. Although I did skip over the part where it reveals my weight to me, I did see my BMI and I nearly fell over. *shudders at the memory*

Today as I was reading LIFL, a section titled “Renewing the mind” really hit me. “So much of the pain and turmoil we feel today has to do with lies implanted from times when we experienced hurt and were wounded. Many of us continue to struggle with overeating because we believe a host of lies.” A couple paragraphs later…”How many times have you known something to be true, such as, God loves me and would never leave me,” and yet you feel this isn’t true. Your experience tells you that what you know to be true isn’t true. And here is the great disconnect: We can know the truth in our heads but not have it connect in our hearts.”

This is something I struggle with (perhaps more often than I’d like to admit). One of my commenters said, in response to my post about surrending, that is really is a daily surrender. I am finding this to be true – and mostly because even though I know in my head that God will help me with this struggle, I don’t think I know it in my heart yet. And so, I have been trying [almost] every day, praying to God to help me, give me the power to say no to my food temptations, and the strength to face my emotions so that I do not turn to food at those points.

Baby steps. That’s what I’m doing right now. Baby steps.

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